Here’s another unexpected side effect, my fast food cravings and will to make healthier choices are improving. For instance, if I went through a drive through I would normally get a meal with a latte for breakfast, a meal with a tea or coke for lunch. Well, now since there are no drink options I would want other than caffeine, I now opt for a large water with everything.
Also, this is a little crazy but because of the drink inclusion, I always got a “meal deal”. I realized I dont like breakfast sandwiches very much without my latte chaser and I dont like fries very much either because they generally aren’t very fresh and I dont even want very many if they are.
So I’ve switched to oatmeal in the mornings, with only a salad or sandwich for lunch. This is a calorie savings of approximately 1000 per day. Don’t even get me started on the decrease in sugar and dairy. Needless to say, my clothes are fitting better.
My allergies have also improved dramatically, which is ironic because stimulants can act as antihistamines. I read in the Caffeine Blues book that many people are allergic to the pesticides used on coffee and tea plants. Add to that my dairy allergy, which I ignored, and then the barrage of other environmental allergens and toxins we face every day and I was a sneezing, coughing, nose blowing, miserable mess.
Along with these, my mind is much calmer. There’s a silence where there has never been silence inside me before. At first it kind of dumbfounded me, like those pictures of deaf children after a surgery where they hear sound for the first time. Only the opposite, mental silence.
Sometimes in the mornings I just sit still and let my head be clear. It’s nice to be able to hold on to that feeling. I couldnt do that before. I had racing thoughts when I went to bed and racing thoughts when I woke up. Now, no race.
I also did a deepish clean on my kitchen and living rooms this weekend along with preparing a nice meal and organizing some areas that have been in chaos foe a while. Looking forward to getting more dishelveled areas in order soon. Depression stems from being overwhelmed by chaos, it feeds on it. Starving it will mean creating order.
This calm is so much better than the buzz of alertness and panic I usually feel. Getting used to it will take time though.